This can be one of the scariest questions you ever ask yourself. I would know as I have asked myself this at least 500 times this year and it’s only April. Some people are blessed to have a clear idea of the career they want to pursue or the life they want to lead, but others like myself struggle to find direction.
You think that it’s scary not knowing what you want to do when you leave high school? Try being 22 and seeing your peers buying houses, getting married, having children and establishing careers for themselves while you study a course you hate and work at a cafe. It’s disheartening to say the least and I think this is one of the reasons I stayed in university for so long. The fact that I could say I was studying was like a fall back, a safety guard against my ego. It was something that I could build a false sense of pride around because in reality I had no clue as to where I was headed. ‘I graduate at the end of the year so I’ll figure out what I want to do then’ is what I kept telling myself and anyone else who asked. Ultimately, my degree was buying me time.
The funny thing is, I have actually known exactly what I’ve wanted to do for a long time now. Only since I started to dis-identify myself from my ego have I been able to realize my dream. The only thing that was stopping me from believing I could be paid to write and travel the world was the fear that my mind created. Fear of what others would think, fear that I couldn’t compete with established bloggers, fear that there were already too many people out there doing the same thing I wanted to do.
I’ve reached a point in my life where I have come to realize that if my passion and focus is strong enough, I can achieve anything I want to. I will no longer listen to the voice in my head that tells me it will be too hard, that I am not good enough. I have always known that I want to live an extraordinary life and that is exactly what I am going to do.
Watch this space!